I actually care..

I know my actions may seem like I don't care for you but that isn't the case at all..
I actually care for you quite deeply.

It's funny I don't mind looking like the bad girl for wanting to give it up, what we have.
Call me selfish, tell me I have no faith or patience, tell me what ever makes you feel better.
Honestly please do and I don't mean it in a sarcastic way at all.
I just feel that as much as I care for you, I do care for me more.
I do believe you should care for yourself a little more.

You always have an excuse... STOP.
I tried to get us on the same page;achieve the ultimate goal(ATUG)
I am on the road to the top and the vehicle still has plenty of seats but I can't force you to come.
I can't promise you it'll be easy, hell I don't even know what obstacles may lay ahead but all I do know is my ultimate goal(UG) is there.
All of those brave enough to take the journey know we may run out of gas but we do know that we want it bad enough we will find some more gas or we will walk even crawl until we get to our UG.

The hidden beauty of having an UG/dream is the ignorance of the struggles before we can even get there.
As we start from a beginning of nothing we see a glamorous no better yet, we see a glorious finish.
We relentlessly disregard the thought of failure.
But once we acknowledge that failure and set backs are and will become part of the journey to our UG we are truly ready for our journey to the top!

I really truly wanted you to be there with me and be there with you as we would rise to the top but you chose not to.
With your decision I am left to say "I wish the best of luck to you and wish nothing but happiness.. but we are now going different directions."

Me and my fellow UG getters are ready to depart on our journey and I am sure we will meet and pick up other UG getters along the way and maybe we might just see you again.

--i forever and am constantly grateful to my fellow UG getters who help me when i'm feeling a little down!