Baseball love..

Baseball is one of... I can't even find the right words to describe the amount of joy it brings me.

With baseball right around the corner I feel I owe it a lovely rant. The key word is lovely.

I remember watching my first ball game it was on the tele *as she laughs to herself* and I'll be honest it was horrible. I wanted to kill myself.
My only reason for watching it, was from losing a bet.
Anyways when the brutal 9 innings were over I said adios, see ya later...more like NEVER.
To my surprise I was secretly crawling back to the tv a couple days later.
& that's how the flirting started between us. Our secret love.
Soon enough I was addicted to the game...in LOVE with baseball.
It didn't take a genius to realize it.

Less than a year later I felt it was time to see my new love face to face..no more of this eHarmony crap!
The minute I walked into the Rogers Centre the smell of hot dogs, peanuts and beer rushed to me... I'm not gonna lie I actually cried for a minute it was beautiful. (no lie, ask my mother)
Nothing like your first baseball game.
Despite not being able to drink, hearing my mother cheer for the A's with some fat American fans and then losing to them. The experience was absolutely amazing. Unforgettable!

& that is the fairy tale story of how baseball and I met and then fell in love, for all the future generations to know.

We still have quite a serious long distance relationship going on...
I live in Vancouver they live in Toronto. We meet up at least once a year and it works lovely just incase you're wondering ;)
--good luck this season Ca-nada's boys of the summer! you got this!

I actually care..

I know my actions may seem like I don't care for you but that isn't the case at all..
I actually care for you quite deeply.

It's funny I don't mind looking like the bad girl for wanting to give it up, what we have.
Call me selfish, tell me I have no faith or patience, tell me what ever makes you feel better.
Honestly please do and I don't mean it in a sarcastic way at all.
I just feel that as much as I care for you, I do care for me more.
I do believe you should care for yourself a little more.

You always have an excuse... STOP.
I tried to get us on the same page;achieve the ultimate goal(ATUG)
I am on the road to the top and the vehicle still has plenty of seats but I can't force you to come.
I can't promise you it'll be easy, hell I don't even know what obstacles may lay ahead but all I do know is my ultimate goal(UG) is there.
All of those brave enough to take the journey know we may run out of gas but we do know that we want it bad enough we will find some more gas or we will walk even crawl until we get to our UG.

The hidden beauty of having an UG/dream is the ignorance of the struggles before we can even get there.
As we start from a beginning of nothing we see a glamorous no better yet, we see a glorious finish.
We relentlessly disregard the thought of failure.
But once we acknowledge that failure and set backs are and will become part of the journey to our UG we are truly ready for our journey to the top!

I really truly wanted you to be there with me and be there with you as we would rise to the top but you chose not to.
With your decision I am left to say "I wish the best of luck to you and wish nothing but happiness.. but we are now going different directions."

Me and my fellow UG getters are ready to depart on our journey and I am sure we will meet and pick up other UG getters along the way and maybe we might just see you again.

--i forever and am constantly grateful to my fellow UG getters who help me when i'm feeling a little down!