save that iissh for some other iittch

Ladies and Gentlemen, tell me what it is about everyone acting like they want the truth. 

You don't want the truth, you ain't even close to being ready to hear the truth. 

I am that one friend you hate to have because I'm not afraid to tell the truth, which will then make you love me. 

(Yes it's a trap. I've trapped you into loving me hahaha.)

Anyways, I don't understand all of this bullshit nowadays. Who the fuck are you trying to convince? 'Cause I sure as hell know it ain't me. 

The beauty of the truth is not just about  "setting you free" it's about moving miles away from that stuff and transforming yourself into something even better. 

Please, for the sake of yourself and everybody else just speak the truth. 

Not everyone is judging you and if they are they're probably a shitty friend you need to discard of or maybe stop talking your shit to random people. 

As a friend, stranger, fellow sister and human-being I am defiantly not judging you right now I'm just giving you that "get your shit together and grow as a person" slap. 

You are surrounded by many friends and family but at night it's you and when you wake up in the morning it's you. The lies live with you and you only. (and God if that's something you believe in.) So just be real with yourself. 

I hope this wakes you up and if not that's cool. 

I am a shoulder, ear and an honest mouth if ever needed. & that's for anyone. 

•nitchie•

by the good grace of God

Highs lows, happiness sadness.
Climbing up this steep mountain to suddenly be back at the bottom.

The journey is unpredictable, breathtaking and heartbreaking.
Do good, see good, speak well and hear the good.
He will reward
He will gladly hold his hand out
& He'll proudly smile once the end of ones journey has been complete. 

Sometimes along the way the faith and the discipline loses strength but never is it gone.
Things aren't going well, feeling alone, waiting for a sign.
Nothing.
Why? Well why not.
He is testing to see if even at that point the belief is still there.
It gets colder and lonelier but then the sun doesn't even rise it just instantly shines.
How beautiful, such beauty!

This journey keeps getting better, the people get even more amazing.
The pain even feels good because a really great feeling is right around the corner.

Praise to God, He is the most merciful and the most compassionate.


•nitchie•

three precious moments...

I had you in my life for 3 moments... 3 precious moments and I will never forget them.

I tried to fight the feeling and did it was successfully... but then I thought this time I would just let it win.

DAMN it felt good.

You made me feel sick, I mean sick to my stomach, I wanted to throw up.

Was it the alcohol? No.

Was it this thing called butterflies? Yes.

You stole my mind with that kiss and almost my heart. Good thing I keep that ish locked up in a safe. HAHA.

I don't really know what else to say...

I am sad you left my life but am so blessed you came into my life. You were sent from God.

You brought passion back into my life, true passion. Thank you.

You reminded me of exactly what I want and need in my life. Thank you.

always in my prayers, always loving your presence and knowledge and always, always in my heart<3

cheers to bringing the butterflies back in my life, thanks.

That is all.

onitch

losing each other along the way...

We never really were that close.
We have tried to make this strong bond many times before but it just doesn't seem to stick.

Who are we kidding we are different regardless of our blood bond.
Same house, different lives lived.

Seems you put more effort into other people than the person across the hall.
It's like how nowadays when you hang out with people they seem to be on their phones more than having a conversation with the person right beside them. Sad.

I love you and will always love you but truth is is you don't care or you just have tried to care as much as you can but it still translates to me as not caring.

All I can say is I do feel bad that I am not what you hoped I would be but I am who I am and hopefully you can learn to accept it a little more each day that passes.

We all struggle with the relationships with family members, significant others and friends.
All I can hope is even if we can't be close we can at least be honest and accepting. 

So cheers to waiting for the day that can happen between each other.

That is all.

onitch

dont answer. weirdo...

So I have probably the worst luck in the love department... I mean horrible.
I am never too rattled by it because well I'm just not... only under crazy circumstances.
ANYWAYS

So I meet many people and swap many numbers because my motto is; LFT because TIP 
Which means 'Live for today because tomorrow isn't promised'
ANYWAYS

I met a fellow brother(s) and one was a little too eager and the other was chill so obviously I hit it off with the chill one better but still exchanged numbers with both of them.
It was funny because 'eager brother' looked SO FAMILIAR yet I couldn't put my finger on it and I kept saying ''I know you from somewhere, I know you''
ANYWAYS

As I eventually started talking with 'chill brother' the next day I still hadn't heard from 'eager brother' so the both of us laughed and wondered when he would spit his 'game' (no offense if you ever read this but the truth is the truth)
ANYWAYS

So a couple days later I get a text from.... guess who.... and I seriously swear this is what he showed up as..

"Dont Answer. Weirdo"

I am not one to cast a huge judgement on someone but this guy obviously still lives up to his 'eager' 'name'

CONCLUSION 
I knew I knew this guy. What makes it worse is that he acted like he didn't know me. I legitimately forgot.
Typical scenarios in my life. Boy do I hate and love it hahaha!!

That is all.

onitch

Only knowing the surface...

Many people will say the same thing about me.
Many people will come to an agreement of what I'm like, what I like and how I am.

By the way they talk about me it sounds great.
Unfortunately that's my surface... and makes me realize how many people really don't know me.
Even my own family.

Friends I really thought were closer.... really aren't and really don't know anything about me.
Regardless God bless them.

My real friends..actually I think anyone's real friends are those who question and constantly challenge them.
Maybe once in a while judge them accordingly.


SHOUT OUT to my real friends who do that for me, I appreciate you more than you can really understand.
I love you guys like my family because you are my family, blood or not.

To those who I thought were close to me and now over time have realized we really aren't that close...I still appreciate you and have love for ya.

That is all.

onitch

impatiently waiting...

i want something but i am unaware of what it actually is...

i have many thoughts of what it may be...
;religion
;love
;family

i have a question but not an answer.

so here i am wondering, questioning and waiting..
it could be all three or it could just be my////

all i know is that there is something missing and i'm looking for it and have yet to find it.
i wish i could get a little more guidance.

only God knows what it is at this time.
i just hope He throws me a bone soon because i don't know if i can wait anymore...

all i do know is, is that sometimes all we need is someone to sit with us silently in our moment of weakness and listen to that song that makes us feel even more emotional yet it still seems to be the perfect song for the moment. 

onitch